Into the Wilderness – CMN Women
Into The Wilderness
By Rachel Bowman
I am not an outside girl. Air conditioning and cleanliness are my jam. Dirt, terrain, and sweat – not so much. So when God called me into the wilderness my gut sank.
I looked around, hoping He was looking at someone else. I prayed, “Surely I am not your girl for this God – surely.” Nope. His eyes locked with mine and He called me over to Him and whispered, "I made you for this."
My whole body filled up with joy, hope, and downright fear. This is not what I had planned.
The wilderness is isolated, expansive, and you never know what will pop out from behind a tree. It seems dark and dangerous because it is unknown territory. Each step could lead to something glorious or your greatest fear.
Wilderness also makes room for maturity, trust, and faith God is guiding you. My verse of the year reads:
"For I am about to do something new.
See, I have already begun! Do you not see it?
I will make a pathway through the wilderness.
I will create rivers in the dry wasteland."
So, as I step into the wilderness, I must remember God cares more about my character than my comfort. He is delivering us from the lonely expansiveness of it all, step-by-step. It's during the sweat, the terrain, the branches to the face, the allergies, the dirt, the hot sun, thirst, and the wanting desperately to give up that God whispers, "I made you for this," again and again.
He is doing a new thing, making new ways, new roads, and new pathways for me and the people behind me. He is asking me to trust Him and allow Him to provide and protect in a place I did not think was my home – a place I feel out of sorts in, but a place I know is shedding me of myself.
The wilderness is a place with glorious sunlight beating down through the trees to guide me, comfort me, and lead me to who He created me to be: an outside girl, a warrior. He is teaching me to be a girl who treads on mountains and over rivers and keeps going to claim new territory and new deserts because of who God is in me.
Today, I lace up my hiking boots and walk on.
If you are in what seems like the wilderness today – the wild forest of anxiety, the desert of depression, the rough waters of loneliness, the rocky road of a new job or relationship or forgiveness – will you lace up your boots with me?
Will you trust the God alongside me to do something new in you? Something big? Something that will lead to breakthrough? Pray a big, bold prayer today, sister. Let's walk into the wilderness together today and see what kind of glory He has in store around the next bend.
Rachel Bowman is a mom to four in four years, pastor's wife, church planter, and writer of words. She enjoys a good cup of coffee, a Lego free floor, and encouraging women where they are. Her and her husband, Paul, are launching Anchor Church in April 2017.
She graduated from Eastern University and is working on becoming a credentialed minister. Come for a visit at waitingforbedtime.com after you have survived your kids’ bedtime routine. Honesty and sweatpants required.